Replications

Timeline

Ingesting 10 mg of 4-AcO-DMT, after approximately 1.5h redosing 10mg more. Most of the trip was spent creating a motion graphics test inside Blender.

Comeup

It started with a very familiar change in perspective of ongoing surrounding conversations as well as different approach on how I view 3D object motion. Ability to pay attention on 3D modelling became increasingly distorted but still my mind managed to induce state of flow that allows me to model/animate without attachment of thought.

Peak

After 1.5 hours since redose, had a strong urge to be closer to nature which subjectively is the same pull towards earth of a mushroom trip. The lake side felt more vast and the mountains more grand, possibly due to increase in visual fidelity and adjustments in my sense of depth of the surrounding environment. The visuals were much clearer than those visible on a mushroom trip. Physically 4-AcO seems to be more sedative in nature, kind of pressing down. Getting waves of relaxation with a certain amount of weight to it.

Comedown

It became easier to be indoors and socialize, easier to jump back into 3D motion experiments. In combination with THC sativa strain, the body seemed to get more relaxed and mind became more productively active.

13 September 2023

Timeline

Taking small to medium amounts of 5-MeO-DMT in a group setting.

Probably the most influential and profound experience I have ever had on psychedelics. In terms of how the mind and body feels, it was a highly euphoric experience that feels like being enveloped in infinite light. In the early stages I felt a significant separation between my consciousness and body, with each going through the experience differently. During several experiences in low and medium doses I experienced 2 significant trips of struggle:

The body has let go, but the mind doesn’t want to

The sense of my body disappeared, but emotionally I wasn’t ready to let go, so instead of feeling the calming bliss of the experience, I was presented with a feeling of strong energy of pure light trying to break out from the confines of my consciousness.

The mind has let go, but the body struggles

Second of the experiences involved me feeling being closer to the breakthrough psychologically, but my body was struggling with handling the substance itself. Instead of no visual feedback, I could visualize a similar energy-breakthrough struggle to the one involving case 1, instead seeing images of my body being the confine of that energy.

Subjectively I believe that one is able to see more visuals on 5-MeO-DMT in case of internal struggle not allowing and fighting the oncoming experience.

I think that for me personally the most impactful part of the experience is coming back, as it gives unparalleled amounts of gratitude towards the gift of being alive. Gives a sense of “anything for the humanity” unity. 5-MeO-DMT can definitely be an impressive tool for therapy.

15 September 2023

Timeline

Taking approximately 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT early in the morning, after consumption of THC and caffeine.

The experience overall was light on the body and the mind.

On the side of the body, a state of weightlesness, no other body part was more felt than head filling up with pressure, mostly because of the THC+caffeine combination increasing my blood pressure levels right before the medicine was consumed I presume.

On the side of the mind, despite the uncomfortable sensation of tension rising in my head, the whole experience was very light and emotionally freeing all of the way, with the warmth from the incoming morning sun only enhancing the feeling of the body wanting to melt away. I did notice more ability to have thoughts while going through the experience, could be the caffeine or the amount of 5-MeO being too little to fully submerge psychologically into the experience.

Visually I did not observe anything more than a fully symmetrical fine distorted noise pattern made out of thin fibers of light. Nothing close to visual experience during previous experiment.

In terms of frequency of the trip, I would say I felt a very big similarity while using Kasina, the range of 26-30 Hz with 20 Hz of pitch. The visual field when coming down from 5-MeO while using the tool was almost identical in feeling as 26-30 Hz strobe, it becoming less noticeable anything after 30 Hz.

Later notes

Subjectively 5-MeO-DMT negative valence experiences on low to moderate doses have something to do with the expansion-contraction concept. During the experience of my body having issues going through the medicine, it felt like infinite light pushing outwards throughout my body as an expanding force when on the opposite end of the spectrum, an external force contracting from the outside with enough energy to keep the light trapped in my body. Seems that there must be a complete balance of both in order to have a full experience or a way to effectively regulate both processes, which happens either by the user letting go of body-mental bodies or it happening automatically on higher doses.

All this as well envelops the topic of visuals in which regard there were almost no visuals during high valence experiences while these heavier experiences displayed vague 2D patterns of water reflection with a sense of a forcefield enveloping it constricting it from dissolving into perfect symmetry.